Sunday, August 07, 2005, 6:11 PM
i finally blog on rojak's blog and i feel very bad. =/ not staying in touch with my dearest rojak-ians. sighhhh. feeling nostalgic again. read heidi's and xiaowei's blog. how I miss those days.......took from heidi and changed some.I miss running into school just right when the bell is about to end.I miss not tucking in my uniform and my long long skirt.I miss eating like crazy in the classroom and nobody gives a damn bout it.I miss the height and weight sessions and nobody makes any useless comment.I miss changing behind the curtains.I miss having the company of those who understands me.I miss being in an all girls schools with no stinky guys.I miss having all my girl friends around who never ever makes me sad.I miss making lame jokes in class and everyone laughs even if it's not funny.I miss staying back in school till 5 oclock just playing bridge and only bridge.I miss saying "i dun wanna go for trng" but still go for trng.I miss the days when we all cheer for one another on the track during sports day (cos 210'02 was the sports class)I miss doodling in class and not listening to teachers.I miss the times where I can be me and just ME.I miss................time for reflection. i know that we all have to continue and move on with times. accept where ever fate has placed me in and not to complain so much with the decisions that i had made earlier on. i should not regret this and that. but rather live each day i have now to the fullest. i always never know how fortunate i was. i never know such GREAT friends that i have. now i know. now i will cherish them. studies are so stressful now. fuck! homework is piling up. maths physics geography econs. mountain of homework on my table and even floor. my room is in such a mess. and im so lazy to pack up only until my mum nags at me. im lagging so much behind. this entire term just sucks. too many breaks. the momentum to study isnt there. im just slacking away everyday. not listening to lecture. not doing tutorials and just taking other people's one and pass it off as mine. i MUST change! should go out less. so many movies and shopping temptations. but i must resist. i should study more. rahhh. i should not go online too often now since that promos are like only how many weeks away. 7? or 8? i cant disappoint my parents. they have high expectations of me. i know it. even though they dun mouth a word about it. FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
